Modern Meditation Moments

Hello again! Better late than never…

 

This time I want to share one of the top experiences of my life!

The past months I have been doing modern meditation (as well as some simpler meditative techniques but this is the one I prefer). It is a form of guided group meditation where everyone sits in a circle, along with the guide. Flowers candles and any personal “special” belongings are put in the center and music is used at intervals.

 

In one of my recent sessions the following happened:

There is this 22 year old guy who from the start sees dance during the music parts. He has never taken a dance class. He saw me perform once.  Soooo this one time during the music parts I started seeing myself dance. There where moments when I was taking the initiative and knew what I was going to do and then there where these other moments when I saw myself as an outside observer not having a clue as to what was provoking my movement. After a while he was there and we danced together in a simple contact improvisation fashion. I got tired, we sat a a ledge, I rested my head on his shoulder ( I think I actually moved my head live), it started raining, we where dancing in the rain, or maybe I was dancing, spinning and he was just there. Finally I ran and leaped in the air and I was gone.

When the session ended we where all asked to share whatever parts of the experience we wanted. I said some things but mentioned nothing about dancing with D (I omit the full name just to be on the safe side).

When his turn came he said a few things and then looked my way and said “And of course during the music parts Eirini had the lead”… I was shocked.

We then got together to talk about it and little by little realized that we had shared the same visions… It was at the same time terrifying and amazingly beautiful!!! The moments I had seen myself dancing of my own volition where the moments when he was just seeing me dance, the moments I was dancing and not knowing what came next where the moments he was making me dance, when he actually sat next to me his shoulder was just where I knew it would be for me to rest my head on, he saw the spinning, he saw me standing in front of him just as I had seen myself do, he saw the stuff on the floor, the contact and finally he saw me leap and disappear …

 

When we finally wrapped our heads around the reality of what had happened, something new for both of us it was hard to part! Ever since a bond has formed, a connection beyond friendship or proximity. Like a small part of our souls has shifted and resides now within the other…

 

I don’t know what others have felt or seen in similar situations, I only know that I feel extremely privileged to have shared such a lovely, awe inspiring experience…

 

Thoughts on Foucalt… Docile bodies, Docile minds??

Weell…

A lot has been said about the need for discipline in life, in art and more specifically in dance… Since I have been 4 years old, I too have been taught to abide to the rules of my class, my practice, my workout… And I do feel that it is necessary.

To what extent though?

Reading through  Foucault- Discipline and punishment the birth of the prison Chapter on Discipline , many contrasting thoughts have crossed my mind…

On the one hand discipline produces efficiency, more collected students, workers, movers, artists. It allows each to have focus and not get carried away. It enables us to have the best possible results… OR DOES IT???? And here start the questions!

When does too much discipline push us into losing our identity, our personality and becoming one with the masses?

How much IS too much?

Why is there a misconception that discipline is forced upon us and thus a form of pressure? And why not discipline ourselves to the extent that each separate individual needs to an a certain point?

Could it be perhaps that throughout history, the creation of disciplined bodies and groups allowed those in control to gain more power? Could it be that enforcing too much discipline resulted in scraping off the uniqueness and trading it for en masse production of bodies?– When I say bodies I mean the body we live in but also social bodies and groups.– People as tools but also tools made up of many people to be used for purposes beyond their knowledge?

 

More to come soon as my own unconventional nature needs time to process more input before becoming too harsh 🙂

 

It is one thing to pass on knowledge and teach discipline and a whole different story to enforce it without explaining why… Taking the time to properly inform those who one wishes to train, allows for them to discipline themselves by choice and having understood and accepted it as a necessity, rather as a burden violently thrust upon them, disregarding their personalities, needs and different characteristics…

 

Discipline tends to rear its ugly head when it is about controlling the trainees, turning them into a tool to suit the “trainers’ ” needs and purposes and not about helping them become the best possible versions of themselves and thus an instrument that can sing many tunes, be agile and adaptive…    I think that we, these past generations, have been working towards making that change and the shift between the roles of “trainer” and “trainee” is becoming all the more clear… There are times when the “trainer” becomes the “trainee” and taking a step back, is able to receive feedback and learn more about himself. He then improves and that in turn allows for a higher level of his next pupils and so on and so forth…

 

Of course discipline is necessary in order to avoid chaos. The fine line lies in figuring out the way for discipline and equality to NOT be mutually exclusive, but rather work in unison and complete each other.

 

As for punishment?? Well it is a word I really do not like. I would much rather call it “facing the consequences of one’s actions, whether they are of a positive or a negative nature”. As Foucault writes “Disciplinary punishment must be essentially corrective”. The objective is not to diminish a person or persons but to aid them to evolve. A mistake however severely punished remains a waste if it is not seen as an opportunity to learn even a tiny thing… I see no point in punishing a wrong if instead it can be righted. Mind you, I am well aware that that is not always a possibility and what I am writing here is just a general viewpoint of mine with many exceptions and variations depending on the circumstances…

 

” In discipline , punishment is only one element of a   double system: gratification-punishment. And it is this system that operates in the process of training and correction. The teacher ‘must avoid, as far as possible, the use of punishment; on the contrary he must endeavour to make rewards more frequent than penalties, the lazy being more encouraged by the desire to be rewarded in the same way as the diligent, than by the fear of punishment; that is why it will be very beneficial, when the teacher is obliged to use punishment, to win the heart of the child if he can, before doing so’ (Demia 17). ”

In other words the it is part of the teachers job to WIN not DEMAND the respect or the pupils and therefore their trust that he wants for them what  is best taking into consideration both the objective criteria and the individuality of every pupil. To understand that it is not all black and white but mostly various shades of grey…  And of course to bear in mind that as humans teachers MAKE MISTAKES TOO!!! And acknowledging those mistakes to the students can serve as an example of self discipline and mutual respect. More can be taught by sharing an experience and setting an example than by setting up rules axiomatically.

Hmmm, and it gets more interesting as I read on!

“In a sense, the power of normalization imposes homogeneity; but it individualizes by making it possible to measure gaps, to determine levels,to fix specialties and to render the differences useful by fitting them one to another”

So in other words the same rules may apply to everyone in a group but, the way they are regarded has a lot to do with the individual characteristics of each person in said group… And the means to make all the individuals making up a group abide to the same rules can vary depending on the mentality and personality of each person. TO MAKE SOMEONE UNDERSTAND YOU YOU HAVE TO SPEAK IN A LANGUAGE THEY CAN UNDERSTAND AND NOT TRY TO FORCE YOUR LANGUAGE UPON THEM. In an ideal world, we’d meet each other half way…

 

 

EXAMINATIONS?!!?!?! I keep changing my mind on the subject…

 

Is violence violence if it is labeled “Art”?

Just some questions for now and more to come as I ponder on the issue…

What constitutes violence? Is it the horror movies we see on TV?

Are the lines between being strict or harsh and being violent clear?

What are the limits when an artist decides to approach the subject of physical, psychological, or emotional violence?

And how do we do it without getting in too deep? (how deep is too deep???)

Hmmm…

More food for thought…